(Its more common than you may think). So sad. If that is your stance, I would encourage you to do what a former teacher may have encouraged you to do read, read, and read some more. But when I returned to work the following day, I discovered there had been no consequence for the student. Here was my chance to work with the children that I will never have, and to nurture them and help them find their way. . . Great to hear from you, and thanks again for your kind words! . Many aspiring teachers enter the career feeling like theyre finally doing what theyre meant to do with their life. A lot of teachers get caught up in this sense of stability and a lifelong plan. The first being having never made a Plan B. Practicing Self-Care to Avoid Teacher Burnout, Using Your Teacher Expertise to Become an Educational Consultant. However, I always feel like I'm never going to be good enough for the work. Everyone wants out. Nobody that special, but. Oddly enough, this post came up when I searched for I dont want to teach again but I need the money. In my state, teachers in or near big cities get paid well. And I cried each and every time I filled them out. I hate teaching, why do I stay? The truth is, I hated the job itself. Its time to write a post about that. I think if you read with an open mind, you will see that there are large issues. I, like many teachers, have to look ourselves in the mirror each day and know that we did what we thought was best. Would I be a teacher if I had to start teaching now? So funny that you readily admit youve been making it up. Authenticity is a valuable trait as a teacher, for sure! I just returned to teaching after a two year maternity absence and I regret the return. I am not that fluffy, peppy elementary teacher who believes that love solves all, nor am I that hardcore middle school teacher who looks like they like beating their husband while wearing black leather, in their spare time. With WHAT? Teachers are leaving for their own survival and then made to feel guilty about it. This laid back, I dont care attitude has really helped me like my job again. I appreciate your post. I didn't dream of being a teacher by age 5, I was a "bad" kid in school, I didn't teach until age 31, after obtaining a 2nd master's degree in education with certification. But then I moved schools and I saw that it wasnt the profession that was the problem, but the leadership. My extended family is full of teachers, so I suppose part of that was because it was the family culture. Sorry, but did you read the article? Which is More Important, Equity or Winning? You hit the nail on the head, and with amazing wit and insight. I entered it to teach, share knowledge, have meaningful conversations not to teach contantly lecture them about basic etiquette, basic life skills and content that they should have learned in primary school (keep in mind I teach highschool.) It was possible for me, is possible for them, and is possible for you. I dropped out at 17, enlisted in the Navy, worked a series of low skill labor jobs. I had a student call me a b**ch and they did nothing about it. And I absolutely adore kids. Thank you Ms. Bowers. I will say, having you as a teacher in the very beginning of your teaching career was special. You were never afraid to participate (which was always entertaining for the students), and your thoughtful feedback helped me to become a stronger professional. There is no reliable way to assess who is ACTUALLY good at this. At the end of the day, I just close my door and teach to the best of my ability. Left to their own devices, the kids will be the first to tell you: heyll cringe at you with raised eyebrows and endearing self-awareness. In fact, my test scores have come up over 30% over last year. Now I work in a large school system where no one really knows whats going on anyway so its easy to do what I want. I needed out, or I was going to end up dead. I quit teaching in 1994 in South Africa after a 17-year career as a science & math teacher. Am always looking for more insights from real teachers whove been in the trenches. You tell them at conferences, You are REALLY doing something right,and you mean it. She will, But as a teacher, this is what you wish you couldsay:Stopmaking excuses for your kids. The kids are terrible. There was also little support for misbehavior so students walked all over me. So when yourhigh, high, highest-ups are committees of people who only know what its like to be a student, it feels akin toa team of accountantstrying to wire a building. The part about the arbitrary data collection for some nameless Lansing educational leader is spot on! Teaching is one of those professions where we are so critical of ourselves and how we carry out our job. I understand the internal battle! I, too, have saved notes/ letters from my students. Now some might learn about my first experience and think - welcome to being a teacher, especially in your first year! Now, after I read your text I feel sure that what my mind had been telling me for years was true "I need to restart somewhere else". Best wishes for every teacher to find or create their own dream job! The purpose of this study was to link consultant and teacher verbal interaction patterns to consultation outcomes. You Don't Hate Teaching, You Hate the System, The Dismantling of Public Education Part 4: Regression, Teachers Who Teach in Schools in Lower-Income Communities Don't Get the Respect They Deserve, The Dismantling of Public Education Part 3: Privatization. . And of course Scott iswell, you know what a brilliant young man he is. Having the answers to these questions will help you move forward on your journey, despite any roadblocks you may encounter. Why? If it werent for them, instead of Googling I dont want to teach anymore, you might already be gone. You may notice that your child's schoolwork is much easier than it has been in the past and requires little effort to complete. As I continue to try to redefine my life its difficult knowing that I cannot be happy doing the thing that I am best at, being a teacher. Thanks for stopping by. The bell schedule. I have been blessed with the come backs who tell me what my class meant to them, what I meant to them. 5. Aargh! You might even feel that you dont have any other skills. Im leaving teaching after 24 years. In the twelve years I was a high school English teacher, I watched people leave the profession in droves. Students need the snot scared out of them just to get them to do the most basic things. Id have to agree with Francesca: its more about a misapplication of what could be an asset, and a serious lack of time/funding for training. Every moment of every day is planned for us. There was never a Plan B because this was supposed to be your "forever" career. ), technology has become the mind-numbing thief of imagination, and in no way does your day resemble that of any other college-educated, white-collar worker. You get it. I wish you the best in this next stage. He was brilliant and I took complete credit for his brilliance!) Because you know what else is the boss of you? In order for peopleto really know how well youredoing your job, they have to watch you do it. Between the scheduling and standardized-test-organizing and discipline issues andparent phone calls and endlesson- and off-campus meetings, sometimes even a ten-minute walk-through is an achievement. A day or two later, I go and teach the lesson, adapting it as I go in accordance with the response of the children. The system is toxic at best. Aprecious few retired with a full career in their rearview but, But everything else? When Im not script reading, the kids are on corporation mandated technology programs for the rest of the day. I Hate Teaching, but I have no Plan B Early on we are told that teaching is a "calling." Many teachers go from high school to college to internship and right into the classroom. So I tried for years to get out, interviewing for anyone who would (rarely) ask. For example, what are the pros of you leaving vs. the cons of you leaving? Youre afraid of letting your colleagues and students down, so you sacrifice your own wants or needs. This is a good article, the sad thing is the only people what will read it and take it to heart are probably the people already in this profession hahaha. Once again, Im stuck. And if you have other unanswered questions (like what jobs hire former teachers, what to know about leaving a pension, or how to rewrite your resume) make sure to check out my Teachers Changing Careers FAQ page. You always go back to teaching because of the large teacher shortage. I was five years from retirement when I just could not take it anymore. They deserve the magic of a captivatingstory. She was enthusiastic, active in her school and district and loved her work. I loved and loathed your article at the same time. I Left Teaching for a New Career. How wonderful that you decided to take an honors writing class in college. You have transferrable skills and can leverage your education and experience. Bob (Please dont call me Bob. Im not Bob, and Im not your friend)Bob, I think that we have a problem., Well, your test scores arentwell, they just arent very good., Well, I said When you have a common assessment at the semesters end, and the lead teacher (Mr. Sts) writes the test, and he has the top 10% of kids academically in his class, its kind of difficult for my kids to keep up, especially when Im maxed out at 30 kids in every classand he has, what was it? Talk about a massive disappointment. That kind of sparkling personality is impossible to forget. Often they stay in the classroom simply because they believe its their only option. Truly, I was floored. It means he needs to stop waiting until THE VERY LAST SECONDto startan essay hes known about for three weeks. that I had to suffer through because someone else said they knew better. But I might argue that our job is also to challenge our students withsomething. Youre spot on. As you and other teachers know, teaching is a profession where you are penalized for being good at your job. Yes, some of the most brilliant kids Ive ever met loved my class. Can you add, Administrators failing to do their jobs and pushing it back on the teachers. Despite these challenges, many teachers continue to push themselves above and beyond rather than seriously considering quitting. its noy why I got into teaching . Itsyour name on thatdoor, after all, so you must be the boss. These students treat me like I am less than human. Youre such a great teacher! or Oh, but the kids need people like you in their lives.. I challenge you to write out a list of all of your teacher duties both in and out of the classroom and identify the skills involved in each. Im hanging in there for the kids. And you spend 180 days with those creatures, so you know their fears (everything) and their hopes and what makes them laugh. Hello Melissa, Whatever I end up doing for life, I want it to be with children. This sets them up for a very stressful application season trying to juggle teaching, figuring out a resume, researching jobs, and hoping to nail down some interviews before signing next years contract. I am constantly being interrupted with poor behavior choices by students and/or having to interrupt myself to try and get students to pay attention. I pick my battles and unfortunately I see no realistic way of helping Johnny whos reading at the 2nd grade level but in 8th grade nor do I see a reason for helping Mike whose in 8th grade but reading at the HS level. I fake a lot of the paper work or just use the same comments for multiple students and even copy and paste from past documents. The kids. I think that being a teacher is what I am best at. Teachers often missed their PPA (planning, preparation and assessment) time because they were dealing with pupils behaviour. I love what I do, until performance week when my students are dragged onto the stage to be performing monkeys, utterly wasting my time and their's, and then afterward we go back to the amazing business of learning. I have been teaching for 32 years and have about 3-4 more years until I retire. And thank you for staying for all your reasons. Students are not products tumblingoffa cookie-cutterassembly line. Im a new teacher (only year 4) and Im already starting to feel burned out. Compelling article; Im also interested in both the very positive AND negative responses I just read on your blog. Congratulations on your marriage! To make matters worse, a child who had special educational needs was subjecting me to frequent physical assaults. Leaving a tenured position or giving up that pension only adds to the stigma and guilt of leaving. My girlfriend has been teaching classes of 40 kids for 10 years now and were both done. I was too old to go to medical school, Im now getting my MSW and will be an LCSW/LMSW soon. It sucks. She worked in Missouri, which pays its teachers very poorly. Its because school districts and administrative types always fall for the junk tech and applications that are poorly designed and implemented. Will I Make More Than My Teacher Salary in a New Position. I looked forward to your class and I took a lot from it. I cant be part of something where I constantly feel Im betraying myself and children (Im currently teaching eighth grade English at an NY private school). Ive been contemplating a move out of teaching for awhile. Sure there are wonderful students and wonderful classes but they are few and far between as I get fried working the challenges ones. Because theyve accepted the (unfortunate) status quo of the profession. I want to read more of your posts/blogs/articles! The ultimate generalists with VERY steep learning curves. Nearly every supply call I get is for the most difficult grade level, subject and ability level (what a shocker.) Maybe this is the universes way of telling me to not return to teaching? Core high school classes arent immune to the damage, either. Teacher guilt and some serious low career self-esteem held me back from leaving when I knew I wanted something different. Our students are coming to school with more and more problems, and the bar for achievement is continually being raised. Negativity. There are a lot of changes in teaching from third to fourth grade. I appreciate your comment, your kindness, and your readership! A lot of times, leaving teaching takes a complete mindset shift. Now that Ive taken a ten year break, I think I should just go back and let my initial license lapse. You might miss their ability to make you forget about therough start to your morning, or the looks of awe on theircaptivatedfaces when they finally learn something that matters. Ive taught in California and Michigan. Even the toughest of guys will cry at the end of that novella. It was always so nasty! to give their baby a D. (Brace yourself for the irate phone call in the morning.). So, try and imagine that youre Mr. Sts for a momenthow would you teach your class?, Ummm, look, Im not Mr. St. When weclose ourdoor each day and stride to the front of the classroom, its easy to fall prey to the illusion that we are in charge. It NEVER stopsthe hours I put in are longer in the school year (oh I also plan during the summer and have meetings too) than I had in a 65-80 hour a week corporate job. Today marks exactly one year without teaching. I have 26 years in and I want to retire NOW. I dont want to do it. I know leaving after 17 years must have been incredibly difficult. Im a newly minted teacher. Im tired of being the mask police. So some of my worst years I scored very high on the Danielson Framework and what were some of my best years teaching I just did mediocre. I let fate and a cross-country movemake it for me, and there are a lot of incredible things about teaching that I really miss. This is a powerful first-hand, in-the-trenches account that people like Arne Duncan would be wise to read! Students are privileged and we have to live with it. I teach studentsyou know, young people? Wow! Since I was a kid, all I wanted to do was teach. Our actual customers?, What does my tone have to do with you telling me, without telling, me to teach to the test. Even if an administrators ONLY JOB was to sit in classroom after classroom, there would still be too few hours in the day and principals and assistant principals are responsible for a lot more than staff assessments. I must say this is an amazing and funny blog. My parents advice: I had to go back to teaching, (FWIW: my therapist, my psychiatrist, and my medical doctor told me to do anything BUT teach.) Having to supply teach a class of 20-30 students with low ability and extremely poor attitudes is already just about causing me a nervous breakdown. I felt completely inadequate. Its, 3. I want to encourage you if you are someone who has or continues to think about leaving - have you ever taught anywhere else? Julie! When I plan a lesson, I ask myself what the kids need to know or be able to do. So glad I took the time to read that article! No but seriously, I also have naturally curly hair and never stop asking people what that use if their naturally curly hair looks amazing. I knew when I walked out of his office that my days at this school were numbered. A popularbright idea is to examine students test scores. Other people with good intentions telling you what an amazing teacher you are and that you cant leave the kids doesnt help. You wanted to foster imagination, not slaughter it. Common Core is the boss of you. Thanks for caring about your students, and thank you for being a positive influence on me as a high school student who probably didnt always try as hard as I should have in English class. 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